ANXIETY!
This is one near and dear to my heart.
Anxiety can make you feel crazy, its another invisible barrier that can keep
you from living your life.
Social Anxiety, This one will make you feel uncomfortable some times to the point
of wanting to run away from a group of people, or even a one on one
interaction, even with some one you are familiar with.
It's amazing how having social anxiety will keep you from ordering
food at a drive through.
I remember some nights, i was so scared to go to the drive through after work,
Mind you i was getting home at 2 am and its my only option... Don't judge me...
But the feeling of being scared of a limited interaction where
I would be ordering from a set menu, handing over payment,
and being handed food.
This became what seemed like an impossible task.
My loving partner would join me late some nights at my apartment,
I would get a text, "Hungy?", I would of course say Yes!
but would be modest and order a small amount, even though I
could have consumed a small horse on my own.
Being aware of who I am, There was always more food available to me upon arrival.
I would like to say that love and stable environment would a great combination,
but even with the endless understanding from my strong rock,
I still get into these dark places in my head where I can barely get out of bed.
I take it upon myself to cook dinner for us every night, but some days I just cant
find the strength to get out of bed and I try to at least reach out and ask for dinner.
Which is ALWAYS met with a SURE! What do you want?
Which is ALWAYS met with a SURE! What do you want?
Being together and alone at the same time is a conflicting concept.
But I'm never really alone, Just in my own mind I am alone.
I find being honest about my anxiety and depression helps, I start to feel stressed and
then I find my some one I can talk to and vent and I generally feel OK after venting.
Keeping it all inside is not a good idea, Reach out to a friend,
talk about it.
Anxiety may feel like a sentence served alone, but it really can be a journey
for two, if you let some one in.
Don't be afraid of reaching out for help, Seek professional help if necessary.
Alcoholism is strong among those with depression and anxiety.
Self Medicating was a route that I tried before.
It never starts out as intentional, you feel terrible and need a break from, well You.
Alcohol provides a temporary release and relaxes you.
One tasty craft beer turns into 2, then into 4 and next thing you know, you've had a gallon of beer,
you're drunk or on your way there.
One fun night a week turns into beers at home a couple nights a week, turns into
EVERY NIGHT.
I had to stop, I had to eliminate the stress factors in my life.
It never became a sever crutch, I don't drink all that much now. Its not terribly
attractive to me, I prefer to wake up feeling refreshed, not lethargic after 10 hours of sleep.
Don't be afraid to communicate, even more so when you're feeling
your anxiety come on, talk to a close friend or a close co worker and just say,
Hey, I am having a hard time at the moment and just need
some one to walk me through this one.
Some times its simply talking about an unrelated subject, just getting your mind off of it.
Now that I have rambled on and on, I hope that I have given some insight into the world of anxiety.
Take care of your Mental health.
- Kyle Martin Theed
